Think, Think, Thinking

Posted on April 26, 2010 by Karen King Hedges: "has lots of things on her mind and plans to bring them all to fruition!! Motivated and focused!!!"

I am blessed and cursed with a mind that constantly thinks, thinks, thinks. About my life, my family's lives, my friend's lives, things I want to do, things I want to be, things that can make me money, when I'm going to find love, when I'm going to feel better, what I want to do for business, when my bills are due, how many dishes I can fit in the dishwasher for maximum efficiency, how to give back to my community, how to feed my soul, who to trust, who to love, HOW to love, how to be a good friend, when to say goodbye, who I miss that has died, how to stay positive, how to create a fulfilling routine, how to stay in touch with people I love, how to remember people I've lost, which stores have the things I like on sale, which coupons I can use before they expire, what to do when someone is just blatantly mean to me, how to heal my heart after it breaks, when I'm going to have a family, when I'm going to get a book deal, what I'm going to cook for dinner, how much my apartment costs, what I need to get at the store, what work is going to be like tonight, why I still have stuffed animals, that I need to get some cold medicine soon, that I want to go home and see my Mommy, that I could sure use a hug right about now, how lonely Las Vegas is most of the time, how many times I have been hurt by people I love, that I need to buy new socks and underwear and a headlight and a tail light for my car, that this month is going to be the biggest financial struggle I've had for a long time, that I'm hoping my car will make it through another year, that I wish I could buy a real house, that I wish my tax refund was in the mail today, the fact that I now have like ten blogs set up and need to write more often, hoping that my neck stops hurting and the blisters on my feet go away soon, wishing that the snap of my fingers would clean my house like it did on Mary Poppins, missing my Mom A LOT, and that all I want to do is stop thinking. About what's on t.v., where is Jimmy Hoffa buried, who is Roger Rabbit, which one of these things doesn't belong, what is the letter of the day, how do you like me now, who's on first, what's the meaning of life, is it evolution or creation, why do we drive on a parkway and park on a driveway, why aren't we supposed to sweat the small stuff if it's the little things that count, who put the ram in the ram-a-lam-a-ding-dong?